How Far Will Happy Go

I know that I haven't blogged in a while, but like I've wrote before, I've just been enjoying life. Well sort of. Actually, I've had double pnuemonia for the past few weeks and have been trying very hard to survive again. It's been a little rough. But I'm doing much better and I think that I'm going to make it. I have both viral and bacterial pneumonia, so it truly is a miracle that I have survived this twice in the past couple of months.

I'm sitting here with tears in my eyes, because I feel so blessed. The feeling is so overwelming. I have a new granddaughter and just found out that I have another on the way! I remember 8 years ago when I had cancer the second time that I asked God to let me live long enough to have a grandbaby. I'm on my way to having 5 of them now! Imagine that! I wish that I could see them, but they live all over the country so it's impossible for me to do so. But my kids are good about sending me pictures and videos on the internet and telling me the day to day things that they do, so I still feel close to them. I just can't believe God has blessed me so many times!! Boy, when I asked for grandbabies, He really came through for me!

I feel so loved. I have friends that are like my family. People who I know love me like a sister or daughter. Or just being a best friend who will call or stop by to see how I'm doing or if I need anything.

My readers here. Oh how I have fallen in love with you. Marie, you rock!!!! And you're CD is having a party Friday night. The whole party is based around your CD. I don't know how you were able to pull off making that CD with the hurricane and everything, but wow! It certainly was worth it. I want everyone to hear it. So I'm starting with the party. I know the official kick off party is in Jan and Ill be there come hell or high water. You know that I'm your number one fan. Gwen and Tim, I'm sorry that I haven't written any comments on your blog, but please know that you are on my mind daily. I think of you both, and your smiles and happiness and faith daily. To all my other readers, I am reading your blogs, I just haven't been able to stay up to leave comments. But you also are on my mind daily and I love reading your blogs. Please know that yes, a lot of people enjoy them.

There are so many things that I feel so blessed about that it's hard to put into words. I know, I know, I'm sappy! That's why I'm "Happy". I pray that things go well this next year and I can start my chemo soon. I'm ready.

To my family, I can't be with them on Christmas, but everyone will be together and I will call and be able to talk to everyone there. So it's almost like being there. My mom just celebrated her 82nd birthday and she still gets around quite well. So I am very fortunate to still have her.

And then of course, there's Comet. My golden retriever. There is nothing that makes me happier than waking up and her smiling at me from ear to ear and hugging me and telling me Good Morning and that she loves me. Every morning that's what I wake up to. You just can't have a bad day when you have someone like her. She is so loving and she starts my day out with pure joy and happiness.

So I'm sitting here thinking about what a blessed life I have, no matter how hard it gets,I am still so blessed. I know that God loves me and has a purpose for me. I couldn't have made it this far without Him. So if I'm sitting here with tears in my eyes because I'm so happy, then I hope that you understand.

I wish you all a very Merry Christmas or holiday. If anyone reads this today and has a few seconds to leave a comment, I would love to hear about your blessings. In the meantime, God bless you and your family and loved ones.

I've been getting phone calls as to why I haven't been blogging lately. Well, to be honest with you, I've been out having fun! The past few weeks I've been on steroids and the dr doubled my pain meds, so I feel like superwoman and I've been doing things that I normally would never be able to do. I haven't even had to use the wheelchair in weeks! It has been heavenly to be without mostly pain. I've started noticing that the steroids are losing their affect a little bit, because I'm waking up in the middle of the night screaming in pain again. But during the day, it's amazing! Everyone who sees me, tells me how great I look (of course I look great, I lost 52 lbs this year) I wear my hair up and put on makeup everyday. I've even gone DANCING! Every Saturday night! Who would have thought? Three weeks ago, I couldn't even get out of bed and here I am dancing. I know that I only have one more week of being on the steroids and then it's back to the old way, so I've taken advantage of every moment during the day to just enjoy it and love doing whatever I want to do. Gosh, I've been so happy the past few weeks. I even cleaned out the garage! I've got one week left, maybe I can get the kitchen painted??? It's so wierd, to have the magic of being pain free for a little while, knowing that it's going to go away, because I'm maxed out now on all the pain meds that I can take without going onto a morphine pump and that I need/want/love the freedom that I've had. I'm going to miss it. Very much. But in the meantime, I'm just loving it! Every single moment is so precious to me. If people would just live there life like this was their gift day, they would understand how I feel. I'm even putting up a Christmas tree for the first time since I've lived here. I've been very blessed this last month. It's so hard to put it into words. Have you ever wondered what it would be like to just have a little time when you can truly enjoy life? That moment in time. This is my time. I needed this to build up my spirit and soul for what I will be going back to. I can handle it. But for now, I'm just "The Happiest Girl in the Whole Wide World!" Love to all. I would like to thank all of you across the world that has made this blog so popular and reading it. I pray that it makes you feel a little bit better each time you read it and that you spread your own happiness around. I would love to hear from some of you. Just drop a line under comments.
With love and joy,
Mobea