How Far Will Happy Go

This news is Very Happy. Sort of. I found out yesterday that Medicare decided to cover the treatment for my disease. My doctor along with many others went to Washington DC and cornered some Senators until they got a bill passed and signed that Medicare would pay for treatment for this rare disease that I have. That was the very good news. I was hugging my neurologist yesterday and crying because it meant I can live!!!! i'm not going to die of this disease. She's actually had patience that have gone into complete remission within 6 months. But it's odd, that while they do the chemo everyday in my home for the first three months, if any happens to me, my doctor is NOT allowed to treat for any side affects and there are many, believe me. But still I've be chemo before, so I know what to expect and how to take care of it myself. The chemo last six months. I was so excited when she told me. To me, it was a miracle! God had blessed me again. He must really want me here for a reason bad!!!!! I think it is to spread happiness around the world.

But then I got home and got to thinking about it. There''s that word called "co-pay" with Medicare. Now the treatment is $30,000 to $40,000 a MONTH for the treatment. Co-pay is usually 20% of that. So that means my co-pay would be at least $6000 a month. I just sat there looking blank. Then i got numb. Then i realized what it meant. Yes, Finally Medicare is going to pay for it. and NO I can't afford the copay. I'm still trying to figure out if I'm going to be able to afford the muscle biopsy that I'm going to see the surgeon about next week. The co pay for his office visist I have. But the copay for the surgery and the hospital for it, I'm no to sure about that. I might be able to borrow a little more if it's not too much from a friend of mine for that., but when it comes down to it. why bother if I'm not going to be able the copay for the treatment? i feel like I'm on a roller coaster. And it's not fun. But I will pray.
Later that day........
I've decided to go for it as if it is going to happen. If God can move a group of Senators and Medicare, then i'm pretty sure the rest of it will be a piece of cake for Him. I don't have another appt with my neurologist until November so I have enough time to see the other doctors and have the biopsy done before then. My appt with the surgeon is monday so I would assume that the biopsy will be done shortly after that. I have a pocket angel who will going with me for that. After living with this disease for so many years, and it getting to the point to where I have to crawl to get into a wheelchair, I'm pretty excited about taking the chemo. It takes over 10,000 blood donors to get one drop of the antibody from their plasma that I need for the chemo. I can understand why it's so expensive. God has kept me here this long for a reason and I think that i have figured out what that is. It is to spread happiness around the world. www.howfarwillhappygo.com. It's working. So I'm going to give it everything that i've got. I'm going for it!!!!